Waiting for my soul
mate
“I’ve been waiting for
him for twenty years, and my biological clock is ticking,” Sarah
told me at the beginning of our meeting. She was a pretty woman in
her forties with long blond hair and bright eyes. I initially met
Gil in high school - two innocent teenagers. We dated on and off for
about four years. He was emotionally distant and I, on the contrary,
wore my heart on my sleeve. We eventually went separate ways and
didn’t even keep in touch. Fifteen years later, just a week before
my wedding, we met by chance at an event arranged by my
fiancé’s
family. We were both surprised and excited, like two forbidden
lovers caught red-handed." Her eyes were sparkled with excitement.
"The night before my wedding I vomited my guts out. I didn’t feel
that my fiancé was the special one share the rest of my life with,
but I married him anyway.
The next morning I realized the big mistake I had made and filed for
divorce. The handsome face of my high school sweetheart, my real
love, Gil, haunted me constantly. A few months later a relative told
me that Gil had gotten married as well and moved away, but I kept
waiting for him. After six years, he returned to California with a
degree from an out-of-state university and was in a miserable
marriage, as rumor had it. Destiny arranged for us to meet again in
the oddest of circumstances, and all the emotions and hopes were
reignited in me.”
Sarah kept unfolding her story as I listened attentively. Did our
heroes have their happy ending? The little voice inside my head
whispered to the contrary -- “If she’s here, she’s probably not so
happy and needs your help.”
“Here’s where things stand today” Sarah continued. “Gil
filed for divorce and moved out of his house to a nearby
apartment, choosing to stay close to his children but still
far away from me. His family hates me, accuses me of
destroying his marriage. My family isn’t too pleased either
and urges me to find 'someone serious'. I’m so lost and
confused. Gil says he needs time 'to get over his divorce
trauma' so he can move on. Should I wait for him or not? And
if yes, for how long? Twenty more years?" Sarah was weeping
with frustration.
I had Sarah relax on the massage table. After settling into
a relaxed state, she imagined going down a flight of stairs
and opening the door to a past life where she had previously
met the soul called “Gil” today.
“I’m a French pianist, travelling and performing all over
Europe in the 1930s. My specialty—Chopin pieces. I love his
music! Being an only child, you can understand my parents'
concern regarding my romantic life. They make sure I have
none. The piano is the only lover I’m allowed. My father is
a science professor at the university. My name is Clara.”
The information came pouring out of Sarah’s memory archive.
“Great,” I encouraged her. “And where is our guy?”
“Ah, he is an admirer of mine. I don’t give him any
attention. I deserve better. He approaches me behind the
scenes after every show but I ignore him.” She added one
more piece to the puzzle. "So he travels to wherever you
perform?" I wondered. "Yes... I guess. I didn't really think
about it..." she slowly
retorted.
"And what does he do for a living?" I asked. "He's a
philosophy professor." she knew it right away.
“O.K.,” I said. “What happens next?”
“I’m diagnosed with lung cancer in my thirties. I die within
one year. Big funeral in Paris.” She said coldly.
“What is the date?” I inquired.
“November 7th, 1947,” she answered without hesitation,
before relating the final details. “After everyone leaves
the cemetery, Gil kneels by my grave and sobs. Three months
later, to the day, on February 7th, 1948; he shoots himself
to death on my grave.”
“Let’s take a deep breath and find out why all of this has
happened. What are your thoughts?” I asked.
“In my French life,” she started comparing, “I was the snob
and he chased me. In the current life, we've switched. He's
not a snob, just afraid to put his heart on the line. And
I’m all heart, which is the exact opposite of the ambitious
pianist that I was.”
“Very interesting. And what did he need to learn back then,
in France?” I inquired.
“In France, he learned persistence well, and he pursued me
without relenting. But I didn’t keep my end of the bargain,
giving no place or importance to the romantic emotions in my
life. Today’s lesson for him is to trust his heart, and to
trust me, that this time I won’t let him down like I did in
Paris.”
We did retro–healing and cleared the negative emotions from
the past life. When I woke her up, I asked her what she was
going to do next. She said that she intended to put less
pressure on him, and then she'd wait for him to come back so
they could reunite. She hoped they might complete what they
had missed in their French past life.
I wished her the best of luck, because who doesn't like a
happy ending? Especially to bigger-than-life and death love
stories!
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